I had to give a talk on Father's Day. I was worried. I seem to cry at the slightest provocation. I didn't know how I was going to manage a talk that people could actually understand.
I had three weeks to think about it. Three weeks to think about my Dad. My memories of him.
At first I had no idea what to say, I was glad I had three weeks.
Then the memories flooded in.
I remembered him laying on the floor and flipping us over his head in the front room. All of us lined up to have a turn. Couch cushions piled to soften the landing.
I remembered the privilege of sitting next to him at dinner. His marauding fork on our dinner plate.
I remembered him taking me on a Daddy/Daughter date when I was 11.
I remembered his stories. His stories about me when I was little. His stories about growing up in Idaho and his cousin Ron. I remembered his stories about his aunts and uncles -- and the family dramas.
I remembered his stories about his brother Jack.
I remembered his stories about Germany after WWII.
I remembered his sense of humor and laughing eyes.
I remembered him trying to teach me how to throw a softball.
I remembered him loving BYU sports.
I remembered him watching sports, and trying to teach me a little about what was going on at the same time.
I remembered how he loved to get us all riled up and then he would sit back and watch the fire works.
I remembered him taking me out for coffee and teaching me how to protect myself when I was about to go on my mission.
I remembered taking him to the beach, and he was disgusted that with so much water, you couldn't use it to water a lawn or garden.
I remembered visiting him, and he always asking me about my car or my job or trying to get me to talk to my mother.
I remembered so many little things. Little things that I miss.
I still try and live my life so he would be proud of me.