He started out saying it was not "Stump the Apostle" but they could ask questions. I laughed. Craig said Thea enjoyed the interactive meeting.
I was getting ready and started thinking what questions would I have for a member of The Twelve. I have been in a similar meeting, but have always been to quiet to ask. And honestly, have never really thought about a question that would be worthy to ask. No attempt to stump him, just a question worthy of his time. One that I could not find in my own study.
I had a question on my mission. I asked to speak with a member of the temple presidency and he gave me a very good answer. My question was - with a dad that had not been active my whole childhood and a mother who had left the Church, where did I belong? Did I have a choice which family I would be with forever? My parents were, and are, divorced. His answer was that Jesus was smart enough and loved us all enough to make the call. I just had to trust in Him.
That has been my answer for most of my tough questions. If I didn't know it, He did and I could trust Him.
Then in a round about way and one I could not retrace, because I tend to think in dizzying circles, I came up with a question where that is not the answer.
How do I forgive someone I don't really want to forgive?
I have read somewhere that forgiveness is a gift bestowed by Heaven. How do I pray for something I don't really want?
And I was given the very simple answer. I don't pray for something I don't want, I pray for something I do want.
I want to be obedient.
I want to follow the commandments.
I want to return to Him.
So, today my prayer became, help me follow Christ and find forgiveness for those I am having a hard time forgiving.
Forgiveness isn't about them or me. It is all about Him.
Maybe I am growing up, finally.
